DUI Ruining My Relationship

This DUI is not only ruining my life buy also my relationship.  My boyfriend is a very happy go-lucky guy.  Always laughing, smiling make jokes etc.  He's so positive in general that it's almst annoying.  However, that is what attracted me about him, his vibrant take on life.  Since I was just court ordered to go to jail for 10 days for my DUI, I've been in a bad funk.  Understandably, I mean who looks forward to going to jail?  I went from drinking every single day to not having a single drink these past three days.  I've noticed I've gone into a deep depression.  My boyfriend triest to make me laugh and I can't muster up a single smile.  Now my terrible attitude is causing him to become stressed and unhappy.  The positive energy he used to give off to me is fading fast.  He's the kind of person who just wants to make me smile but he can't so he's frustrated.  I don't know what to do..........I told him this morning I'm just in a bad mood because of thinking about jail and I just want it to be over with.  I know my attitude needs to change if  I want to continue to be happy in my life and with my boyfriend.  What do you all think?  She he be more understanding or am I just being a bitch and need to deal with the consequences of my actions?

Playboy Drops the Ball with Lohan Photos

Yeeeeah Red Lobster for dinner tonight.  I know I'm white trash but I don't give a fuck, I can eat crab every night.  Plus it's perfect for my diet.  I've been hungover all day so I'm drinking a Coors Light (another white trash move.)  Speaking of drinking......tomorrow I have to go to a mechanic to get the IID Interlock device installed in my car.  For those that don't know what it is, it's a breathalyzer that you have to blow into before the car will start.  Not only that it goes off every 10 minutes while you're driving.  I have to have it for two years which sucks balls.  Looks like I won't be taking any long road trips in my suped up Tahoe.  I'm so hungry and my BF is taking forever to get home from work.  I'm going to dinner with my sister and her zero personality baby daddy and they're already there getting shit faced no doubt.  I went out to Dave and Buster's last night which is a huge bar and adult arcade.  That's why I'm hella tired.  It's my work Christmas party and bailed which my coworkers are pissed about.  Apparantely they think I'm a real good time.  They haven't seen me party though but that would probably make them think I was an even bigger rockstar.  I saw the Lindsay Lohan Playboy photos that were leaked today and I have to say I'm not impressed.  Her tits look good for being natural but the rest is just boring.  Why the Marilyn Monroe thing too??  She in no one epitomizes Marilyn Monroe in any context.  Playboy must be really desperate.  I guess there's better shit on the Internet.

Heading to Jail for DUI

So it sucks to say I am going to jail in January for my DUI.  Not only that I'm going to a total shit hole that houses repeat offenders and I'm not a repeat offender.  So it will be interesting to see how I "last" in jail.  My plan is to stay away from the phones because that's where fights usually start.  I'm a little nervous because I don't know how my "cell mates" are gonna be but it is what it is.  So I got sentenced to 10 days in jail with credit for 1 day served.  They are allowing me to do it on the weekends so I turn myself in on Friday and am released Sunday.  I will do this for three weekends.  The reason I got the sentence was because I blew a .25, hit a car (no one was hurt thank God) and ran, then I hit a fence and a pole.  I am very lucky and in no way think my punishment is too harsh.  I just wish I wasn't put in the scumiest place on earth with people who have commited more severe crimes.  I plan to blog about my experience so stay tuned.  I don't start until January 6th. 

HCG Didn't work for me

Ok so I'm over it.  I followed this diet to a T even all weekend except I had 6 Skittles on Sunday and I swear I counted them.  I got on the scale and it said I gained 5 pounds over night.  I read on the message boards that even though you're only consuming 500 calories that if you cheat even just a little the HCG diet is unforgiving.  So that being said I'm going back to my old diet where I weighed 115 pounds by eating and drinking whatever I wanted as long as it was in small portions and I ran at least three times a week.  Seems healthier than HCG.  What a waste of $67.00 for the drops.  Don't get me wrong, there have been three people from my work that have had great success.  I just love food way to much and would rather be able to eat small portions of the things I love and still lose weight.  Eating one skim string cheese shouldn't have also caused me weight to jump earlier in the week.

Day 5 of the HCG Diet

So it's day 5 and I've already lost 5 pounds.  It's acutally a 5 pound loss in 4 days because my first day of the diet I had to gorge on fattening foods.  Surprisingly I haven't had any cravings and I don't feel like I'm starving.  Today I ate a orange for breakfast and had rye toast for a snack.  They say to have Melba toast but I couldn't find it anywhere so rye is the next best thing.  Lunch I ate a very small piece of steak and salad with no dressing just radishes, tomatoes and lemon juice.  The HCG diet book has a great recipe for a cucumber dressing you can make.  I'll post that later.   Last night I did have some vodka but I still lost 1.3 pounds.  So suffice to say I'm lovign this diet and the results.  Yes there are times I just want to grab a starchy muffin or biscuit but I don't feel like I'm missing out on anything.  The results are more important to me.  Is anyone else finding success or failure with this diet?  I still have 20 or so days to go!  Oh and if you get to your goal weight before the 23-26 days of the diet you can start the taper and maintenance phase where you add an extra 200 or so calories to your diet. **Another thing to note.....you should never feel hunger pangs on this diet as long as you are loading properly.  It's good to snack on the approved foods throughout the day.  I brought lettuce with crab meat, tomatoes and radishes and have just been grazing on it as my snack all day.  It really works.